Capsule

A friend of mine is visiting Thailand soon for a couple weeks.

It hurts.

Well, it doesn’t hurt. it’s a yearning feeling.

I forget in which language it is but the translation to miss something, is actually to have it missing from you.

That is what Thailand is to me.

Not just a nation, but my true self is there somehow. I know that nostalgia has kicked in in a way that I am different person from my Thai self. And if I visited now, it would an utterly different experience as I would do different things and react differently.

Everything would be different.

In my memory though, Thailand is a time capsule of tough lessons learned the hard way, and waking up every morning to sun in my sheets knowing I was happy.

I’m yearning to open up that time capsule for myself.

Maybe, I just need to create another instead.